Losing Weight

During secondary school my weight never changes. It maintains at 50kg every single year no matter how much i ate. Maybe it was because i joined losta school activities which makes me an active person so my weight don't increase or decrease.

Everything changes when i start to enter form 6. Form 6 is the time i starts to get lazy and i don't even exercise at all. I ate KFC and MCD almost every single week with my classmates and a lot more oily fatty foods. Then my weight starts to keep on increasing but its still okay because whenever I feel Im getting fatter i stop to eat so much.

Things got even worse when i start my Uni life here in Kampar. Firstly it was because Kampar's food is very big in portion. Sometimes i feel wasted if I don't finish all my food because I pay for it not my parents anymore. So i kept on eating even I am already full. This goes on and on and on till my appetites got bigger. I can eat likeaGIANT. Ugh.

Secondly it was because the economy rice here is kind of cheap for me. Because every time i eat economy rice here it will never cost me more than RM3.50. Cheap right??? So...i keep on eating without controlling. Besides that, it was also because of stress. When Im stress i tends to eat a lot. Especially desserts.

All these causes my weight increase till 60kg. I still don't realise it until every commented that i looks fat already. Ahh... its kinda sad coz i tot no matter how much i eat i will never be fat but....it happens. hmmm. So that time onwards i try to eat lesser and lesser and exercise.

It works! I finally get to drop till 56kg which i think its normal for me coz im 170cm tall. So I maintain my weight although i've think of trying to hit only 50kg. Which is considered as underweight for my height. But recently I've had my braces on. Its hard for me to chew food and i can only eat very very slow. I might even need an hour to finish all my food and the pain makes me loose my appetite.

After one three months of braces I can finally feel myself getting thinner and thinner. When i went to weigh i realized I've dropped till 51kg. I don't know should i be happy or not because I always wants to be thinner. Haha. But somehow after some time i felt unhealthy. Im scared. Coz....even my small boobs are getting smaller. Yeah. Now is flat already. -,-

What should I do? What can I do? I eat a plate of rice i got stomach cramps. I don't eat also cramps. WTF my stomach wants. Sometimes I can even vomit when i eat too much. I don't want to have flat boobs and i don't want to be too underweight. I hope my weight stays and will never go any lower or higher.

Oh ya. I don't looks very thin coz i actually has lotsa fats.

I am back again

Oh Hie Dear Blog.

Why am i suddenly back to write a blog post? Hmm maybe coz I am too bored. Lol
Recent life is very unpredictable. Ahh... Ok where should I start with?

Uni life isn't as interesting as i tot. Well it was because I din't make it interesting. Lol.
I should have join those events and make more new friends but I am shy. YES. I AM SHY = |
I am such an anti-social people. I can rather stay in the room 24hrs and survive with only drinking water.
Hmm.. I am afraid of mixing too many people maybe? Im over sensitive. I loves to think too much which will cause me sad for no reason. Haha IDIOT.

Yes. That always happened. My life is supposed to be like a Rainbow like my blog header. So i keep on pushing myself to change.
Change , change  and change. Changes might not be obvious for people but its a big changes for me.
I've changed till I can't even recognize myself anymore.
I always try to ignore people who hurt me but whenever I see them sad Im sad too and I will give up and start to approach them again. UGH.

Im too over busy body i guess. In the end people take me for granted.
They always want me to follow them doing what they want.They never even try to asking me what I actually wants.
Ok maybe they did but it will end up I am the one who follows them back.

I never get to voice out my opinions at all. Even if i get to do it, my opinions will be rejected. When I voice out what i felt i would been told that my opinions aren't good enough.
YA RIGHTTTT! Never try never know what !
Every time when the decision they make fail only my decision will be brought up. Means mine is better isn't? BOO.
Alright alright. Im going to stop complaining. People don't live for you so don't ever make urself to live for people.

Well, this semester is going to be a very busy semester because we gotta start with our Final Year Project and next semester would be our internship.
Kinda happy coz of intern because i get to go somewhere far away from people and try to adapt with a new surrounding.
Whenever I am back in hometown, I feel like going back to Uni place. Whenever I am back to Uni, I feel like going back hometown.
These feelings never fade. Its because of those problems that occur in both place. I never have peace in my life.

Hmm.. talk about peace. Oops...i actually have. Its during last sem break where i get to go Redang Island for holiday.
Although that was only a short trip but i do enjoy a lot. =)
But of course there still prob that occur. Which is..... I FORGOT TO BRING MY IDENTITY CARD with me. Lol
Yeah. I forgot. What i only remembered was moneyyyyyyy.
Of course thank god there were friends around me which makes me not so "gan jiong" haha.
And thank god once again that i get to fly there and back without my identity card. =D
Ok this post is too wordy. Lemme show you a happy picture we took in Redang Island before i end this post.

HAHA nice right! ahem i edited it because i think this looks nicer than the original picture. HEHE ~ Bye